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Today I am sad. I am allowing myself this day to marinate in all the feelings... good-byes... changes...
This day to breathe-in the city, my home and my friends. This day to find the things which I can take with me, in my heart and in my mind, and honor the process of letting it all go.
I haven't enough fingers and toes to count all of the times that I have moved. This isn't even the first or second time that I'll be moving across the country with no address to claim and only weeks to get ready.
However, Austin is my first hometown that fit. Austin is the first hometown where I met people truly like me. Austin managed to hold on to me for 6 years and without realizing I began to nestle and settle in a way that I have not done before.
The pain is momentary; the contraction and fear before the big push of birth into a new and wonderful existance. It will pass and I will be stronger for the experience of it.
But right now, just today... I'm going to experience it.
Take a deep breath, get down in it and truly know it. Remember that where my courage exists there can be no real fear.
Today I honor my separateness; I am not my belongings, I am not my location, nothing, save my soul, has ever truly been mine. And I honor my oneness; the way this town, and the people in it, have enriched my soul and become a part of it.
Thank you Austin.
Thank you Friends.
I love you and I will miss you.
xo
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I'm so excited for you and your family...can't wait to see how your adventure unfolds! Life on the road is joyously chaotic and wonderful :)
xxoo
sara
www.livelightlytour.com
I have just come across your blog and am so happy for you.
I follow the enchanted gypsy and would love to move into a converted bus, but my family don't want to.
So I stay in our box and live my dream through you all.
Take care and have many happy times.
Pippa (from England)
You are so beautiful. Your family is beautiful, your energy and the sheer amount of strength you have to live your values...I don't mean to sound creepy at all - I just found your blog and I am so very glad there are people in the world like you and yours.
Alli
I felt like this once ... when I traveled to Europe alone after I graduated from college ... no job, all alone, in a foreign country with a foreign language being spoken around me ... free from everything. It was the greatest feeling of my life. And scary. I really enjoyed it.
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